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i just got back from an information session with general mills. tomorrow is the career fair. i've been completely revamping my resume. erecruiting is my homepage. graduation is coming.

too quickly.

today, i needed to tell myself this.

i needed to tell goldman sachs this.

answers

after 60 seconds of my time, colorquiz.com's accuracy is somewhat terrifying...

MY Existing Situation

Needs excitement and constant stimulation. Willingly participates in activities that are thrilling and offer adventure.

MY Stress Sources

"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as herself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of herself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."

MY Restrained Characteristics

"Has high emotional expectations, which makes it difficult to find a satisfying relationship. her reserved, cautious nature makes her emotionally distant. "

"Current situation makes her feel unable to prove herself, but tries to make the best of things."

"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

MY Desired Objective

"Is very intense person who seeks excitement. Wants others to see her as an exciting and interesting person, who is also charming and can easily influence others. Uses her charm to increase her chances of success and gain other people's trust."

MY Actual Problem

"Enjoys making new plans and goals, but needs to be respected and admired for the things she accomplishes."

Now i only wish they offered solutions to my 'actual problems'

smile

i just spent 20 minutes online figuring out the name of my favorite flower.

i should have been listening to my strategy professor talking about price/quantity relationships and multiple correlation analysis, maybe then the whiteboard wouldn't look like the rosetta stone. but...

the flowers are beyond beautiful and every time i think of them i smile. i need that right now. i need something to make me smile. they're motivating me to get my life in harmony.

hydrangeas are my favorite flower.

harmony hydrangeas.

trust the truth

last night a friend reminded me of something very important- we are all important.

no matter who we are, no matter what we're good at or what were not good at,

we are worth it.

despite what others tell you and what you tell yourself, it's true.

one of the hardest things to remember is our self-worth.

remember, the worth of souls is great in the sight of God (D&C 18:10)

waking up to the most beautiful flowers on my car is helping me remember

babies

baby morgan. 6 pounds 4 ounces of love.

too precious for words.

congrats tay and molls- love you both!

nature relationship

i'm in history of creativity. last night i read the text book and actually loved it. it was so fascinating. i got to read about egypt, india and china. taoism, buddha, and confucius. it made me so grateful to my parents for all the traveling they have let me do and how it has had such an impact on who i am today.

"The world is ruled by letting things take their course.
it cannot be ruled by interfering."-tao

let.it.be.

the night of firsts.

he told me about his favorite 4 year old cousin named kennedy.

i told him i wanted to name my kids after the presidents-

he had already thought of that.

no more

my professor is a doctor. a doctor of engineering, of marketing, of business, and of life. today he diagnosed me with...

analysis paralysis.

my friend in jr. high had it right when he said i over-analyze everything. i think. think. and think some more. and then i get paralyzed. that's when i feel like giving up because i'm so caught up in thinking that i'm not making any decisions. I'm just sitting there, trapped in my mind, too scared that my decision is wrong.

so today i've decided to think enough, but not too much.

i felt confused today- what am i doing with my life?? and then i remembered... this is what i'm doing with my life...

"To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." -emerson

ps. D&C 50:40-46

catching crawdads

over the weekend a friend and i were at nielsons park when we saw a sign about fishing in the pond. so naturally, we fished. and much to his surprise we caught 2!! duck. and chase. those were their names. (p.s. they were not anglers like i thought. apparently i am an angler..)

so sunday i got a fishing license.

that night i went up to my cabin with all my aunts and uncles. my uncle dave and kurt took a bunch of us out to strawberry to catch crawdads. we didn't go till dark, so it was 58 degrees by the time we got there. wes and i waded in the water up to our mid-thighs, would throw a piece of raw chicken into the water and then take a net to catch the crays. after we caught over 150, we had to rip their tails off and freeze them for the ride home. for anyone who thinks i'm a girly-girl, let it be known that i ripped many of their bodies in half...

we got back to the cabin and had a delicious midnight snack ;)

this weekend i've decided i love fishing. football. friends. family. and life.

crown.

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
You swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up on board with you
Right off into your dellusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction oh
But you won't ever see

Who made you king of anything

-SARA BAREILLES