last night

i had a dream.

obviously, for some completely rational reason i flew home to ut for the day

i don't at all remember why i did that....

i do however remember thinking oh how wonderful now i can grab all those things i was wishing i had brought out here to dc with me!!!!

so quickly i ran around the house and gathered those ESSENTIALS:

-a pillow

-my silver heels

-zesta saltines

now if this dream proves nothing else, i must say i am clearly

an excellent packer.

time.

just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.

- anonymous

numero dos.

ecru.

put it on the list.

i'm officially obsessed.

numero uno.

mint green.

has officially joined my forever favorite color [grey]

latest

obsessions.

this beauty for my wrist.

this beauty on repeat all day long.

spending the last week here.

getting rid of this.

and of course, this.

OH AND THIS.

ps. i have two new favorite colors.

more on that later.

aching.

i can't decide which i want more.
this polar bear
or this adorable little blonde boy.

let's be honest.
how on earth would i take care of a polar bear?

or an adorable little boy...

fear-less.

i have so many people in my life who make me feel invaluable.

i want to be someone like that- someone who makes people realize their potential and feel invaluable.

because everyone is invaluable. and we're all amazing.

and little reminders of that make us feel less. scared.

sharing

i just got back from an information session with general mills. tomorrow is the career fair. i've been completely revamping my resume. erecruiting is my homepage. graduation is coming.

too quickly.

today, i needed to tell myself this.

i needed to tell goldman sachs this.

trust the truth

last night a friend reminded me of something very important- we are all important.

no matter who we are, no matter what we're good at or what were not good at,

we are worth it.

despite what others tell you and what you tell yourself, it's true.

one of the hardest things to remember is our self-worth.

remember, the worth of souls is great in the sight of God (D&C 18:10)

waking up to the most beautiful flowers on my car is helping me remember

nature relationship

i'm in history of creativity. last night i read the text book and actually loved it. it was so fascinating. i got to read about egypt, india and china. taoism, buddha, and confucius. it made me so grateful to my parents for all the traveling they have let me do and how it has had such an impact on who i am today.

"The world is ruled by letting things take their course.
it cannot be ruled by interfering."-tao

let.it.be.

20.10.

resolute.

i want to change for no one but myself.

listen more. talk less.

learn more. worry less.

read more. argue less.

trust more. judge less.

create more. schedule less.

remember more. delay less.

this year i want more simplicity and less fear.

ps. twenty10, please please please please please please don't bring men.

so yesterday.

dear 2009,

thank you for all the experiences you brought me.

india showed me humility.

leprosy colonies showed me real love.

hawaii showed me a family.

dc showed me how much i miss my sister.

swine flu showed me i need my parents.

brain tumors showed me how fragile life is.

those times showed me true strength

midwestern showed me how much i admire bradley.

byu showed me my passion for business.

home showed me my purpose.

you helped me put my priorities straight.

you helped me discover myself.

you helped me understand more.

life showed me more than ever before this year.

although 2009 was difficult, i learned a lot...and isn't that the point?

all along

i still have your scarf

after all this time.

i've worn it all along

i wore it when the sun was gone

when the clouds were here, but you weren't

it made me think of you, and when times weren't so hard

it made me feel like you were with me and i could do anything

it smells like you

it feels like you

but it isn't you

come bring back the sun

thanking

mom and dad, for teaching me life.

pinky for being the most consistent thing in my life.

byu for broadening my curiosity for life.

whitney and amber for showing me who i strive to be in life.

music for making me feel life.

brad and taylor for grounding me in life.

heaven for giving me something to believe in this life.

wes for showing me strength in whatever comes of life.

my endless thoughts to keep me company in life.

molly for showing me how to be a child's best friend in life.

river.saylor.mya.beckham. for living life.

my friends for teaching me to laugh at life.

missionaries for being stronger than me in this life.

dinner tables for bringing us together in life.

my grandparents for their wisdom in life.

books for offering a break from life.